E Hula Mau

Yup it's that time of year the E Hula Mau is this weekend at the Performing arts center. I'm so jazzed . ikt's like sort of being in Hawaii again . . except I'm not and it's still Long BEach eh, go figure .  but yeah some fun stuff lots of Polynesian dancing and food and hoot guys and girls . . .

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A pack of Killer Tongans . . .

no really there is a pack of killer Tongans running around Long Beach!!!  . .  well sort of they are this ELITE military group from Tonga . . and guess what I did??? Offended them, apparently, or so I hear . .  they wanted their picture taken with me . . for what reason I know not nor do I care . .my arms were full of crap, work and what not . . and when this PACK of killer Tongans Rushed me at the cross walk all I could think of to say was NO . . because I was losing thing out my arms . . I felt bad for a minute . . especially when I read about them in the paper the following day, which was yesterday . .  ehhh what can I do? not everyone gives their image up ya know!

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AaaRrrggHHH . . I'm SICk!!!!!!!

Who the hell gets a cold in August? me . . . I have the worst cold and it's gross . .  bwahahahahaha

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My Ass is KILLING me!!!

The pain is nearly exquisite. The burn intense.  Who would have thought that a little bit or working out could be so painful? So hot. So sweaty? First I took it singly . . . then I tried taking it two at a time . . . the stretch was good, but I though I could take more . . so I went to triples. That was a little much so I went back to doubles. up down and up and down. I went as fast as I could and then slowed it down. Switching off between taking it singly and then doubly and then back to singly and man the stretch and the sweat. The going down part wasn't so hard, I mean we all know how to go down, right? It's taking it on the up, that was the difficult part a little different. I never thought it could feel so good and then hurt so bad. I mean I slid right into it. I maintained my stamina for a while a good long while. I'm not quitter! But, oh the sheer pain of it all.

 

This morning i was feeling like jelly all quivery and what not from last night. I was tight again, but still when you take two at a time it can be a little much. I think I am gonna stick to only taking it one at aa time for a while . . and then work myself up to taking it two at a time. I'm lucky I might even be able to get up to three at a time . . Who knows all I know is it feels rrrrreal good.

 

Bwahahah . . you perv you thought I was talking dirty, eh? I'm talking about running stairs!! bwahahahahah

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Boot Camp Boy!!!

Ugh I fell in love again this morning. I met the Boot Camp Boy. I am not sure who he is beyond that, but we started talking at Starbucks. He runs the Boot Camp fitness program at the park. He wants to give me "information" (he winked and smiled when he said this.) I laughed, but then said sure. So I gave him my number.

 

I love my crushes . .  I have them frequently and often . . I know I'll probably never see nor talk to the Boot Camp Boy again, but still he was a sight . . . He almost towered over me which is unusual for me to be attracted to someone so much taller than myself. I'm 6'5". He was something (ethnically speaking) I am not sure what I would like to think he was Hawaiian, but I'm not sure . . and HULKING . . I mean he was massive. Defined. Dark eyes dark Hair and beautiful to look at . . but still . .  you know me . . I won't commit . . . well maybe

 

 

 

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The Woman and The Wolf

Everyday she walks. She and her companion. Through the park. She's slight. Graying. Slow. Her companion looks like her. Slight Graying. Slow. They walk from the front of the path to the end and back, Slow constant and steady. She maintaining a firm grip on his shortened leash made of chain and leather. Neither of them minding much the people running, walking, talking around them. Not paying attention to anyone or anything beyond what it is they're doing. Slow and constant. Determined. I see her everyday. The woman and her companion. She never really looks at anyone. She's got her mind focused on her task . . .walk the dog. But today she sees me and smiles. I say, "Good morning!" She doesn't speak much English, but responds, "Buenos Dias!!" Her companion looks at me with weary eyes. It's obvious he's old. He's lived a long life. He's tired. 

 

I asked the woman about him today. I tried to at least. She wouldn't say or couldn't say (for lack of understanding English and my inability to conjugate Spanish verbs) what he is or where he's from, but I ask anyhow. She smiled at me when I said, "Lobos?" and gave me the funniest little nod of her head. And she went on walking her Wolf . . .  

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Happy Birthday!!!

My Dad's Birthday was the 20th of August. I didn't geet to wish him a Happy Birthday because of situations with that MASTADON that's supposed to be my mother . . . anyhow yeah I know I am not supposed to bash on friends or family, but still it's annoying I can't even wish my father a Happy Birthday because of some horrendous genetic mistake like her . . . and she wants to know why us kids don't like her . .  oh I don't could it be your disposition? your personality? your massive mounds of flesh that seem to be ever expansive like the ever expanding universe???? You tell me you cow.
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But I digress . . sorry

 

Happy Birthday Dad! I hope you are doing well. I love you . . .

 

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Question . . .

Does anyone read this??? no really I am curious if anyone out there reads this crap at all . . .  let me know . . show some love . . . show some hate . .  show some something . . PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!

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Fucking Strangers

Yup . . . Fucking Strangers . . .in the middle of the night . . . need I say more? if I do, just ask me

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A Goodly Sum

My world continues to get smaller and smaller every day. I was at Starbucks this morning . . they really should start paying ME for the free advertising. Anyhow I was at Starbucks and the manager, Ran, asked me about Disney and my time there and I started sharing some thing . . . it turns out ran not only knows several of my friends apparaently he is also familiar with a couple of people I am not so fond of namely a guy by the name of Chris Steves, yes that's his name . .  . anyhow I was shocked because Ran is from Georgia and not really from California. I didn't really get to ask him how he knew these people, but that is a conversation I want to finish . .  I can't believe how the world, my world, continues to shrink right before my eyes.

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Fairwell Leona . . I hardly knew yee!!!!

Mondthe "Queen of Mean" the much maligned former MODEL .  .Leona Helsmley passed away . .  worth something in the neighborhood of 2.5 BILLION (with a B people) died of heart failure. The woman was the antichrist of the hotel industry.

 

 

It's funny . . the Angel of The Manhattan Filthy Rich Scene, Brooke Astor, just passed away . . . and now so has the devil . .  go figure  . .bwahahahaha

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Running . . . my Sexual Catharsis

So I have been running along the beach alot lately .  . .just running, about 18 miles a day . . .so yeah 9 miles twice a day morning and night . . . and I think i figured out why I am doing it . . no it's not the feeling of pride I have in an accomplishment nor is it to reach some blissful zen like nirvana or anything like that I think it's purely sexual . . that's right it's sexual and vanity . .but mainly sexual . . there is something so amazingly sexy about seeing a guy running along the beach all hot and sweaty . .ugh anyhow . . yeah I guess I really am a perv . . meanwhile the vanity aspect is exactly that, I have suddenly gotten far more vain in the last two months . .especially since I am at a much healthier place than I was a few months ago . .  and I look hot  . .thank you very much!!! hot . .  as in I'd fuck me . . . even though I am not attracted to me . .eh maybe I'll give myself a pity fuck . . . bwahahahaha

 

I'm lame anyhow yeah running = sexual catharsis . .try it out!!!!!!!!!!!

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Focus

So I have com to the conclusion that there is no focus in my blog . .  what am I gonna do about it? probably nothing but yeah I am just making it known that I know that I haven't got any focus. bwahahahhaa

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A Cow Chewing Her Cud

There is nothing more oobnoxious in this world than a GROWN (let's call her almost elderly) woman sitting there SMACKING her gum like she has no manners. She knows it's obnoxious too which is why she's doing it and the fact that she's WHITe makes the issue that much more annoying because she looks like a free kuv'n hippy chick . . . ugh those damn free spirits and what not.

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Nathan On the Wards

So I finalll heard from Nathan . . . he's trying to do well on the wards . .whatever that means . . .I know what it means but still . . anyhow I wish him the best. I miss his sense of humor it makes me smile . .

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La Hilton

Repo! the Musical???? what the hell is that about? yup Paris Hilton's next big flop!!! Bwahahahaha

 

Speaking of La Hilton, turnns out that Barron Hilton's all but disowned her, poor tyke . .. she's been cut out of his will . . good show girl!!!

 

speaking of paris hilton and shows she had her first fashion show at Kitson's yesterday . . . it wasn't half bad. I wouldn't say it was good, but it wasn't half bad .  .

 

meanwhile . . .
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Starbucks Candlewood and something or other

Smoothest most charismatic heart meltong Smile, The Sexiest Darkest most seductive Eyes. The most amazing flawless skin . . .hot just straight up hot . . nothing else need be said

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Too Close For Comfort

Hugo Liu . . .M.I.T.

 

Way tooo similar to what's his name. Way too close I almost wasn't even going to feign interest in Hug except for one small thing. The more I talked to him the more he was everything what's his name WANTED to be, Smart, Sexy, Successful, Energetic, Enthusiastic . . . but is incapable of EVER being. which is sad beecause I love what's his name. In any event. Hugo Liu definitely someone I am interested in knowing. Even if it means having to deal with another Liu . . bwahahahahahahhaah

 

Sorry What's His Name :o) you know I love you . . . time to move on though.

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What's Cool . . . At least to me

So I am all about Famima which is this Japanese store, very high end and very high profile that's sort of like a crss between a 7-11 and Hawaii's venerable ABC Stores
except the cool thing about Famima is that it's not so kitchy and yet still maintains it's coolness. Anyhow yeah it's one of my new favorite places . . even though I myself prefer ABC Stores, but alas there's none in California . . .that I am aware of . . . the closest ABC store to me is in Las Vegas

Sean + Starbucks = Satisfied

I'm pretty lucky . . . the Starbucks I go to most (where my friend Reality works . . . Here's your shout out Reality . . . WOOT WOOT!!!) recently decided that they were going to cut their food order. Which was fine I guess, but they cut the things that I buy the most of which are the vegetable plates and the fruit . . . I was more than a little annoyed when i went into the store and there was nothing . . . SOOOOOO I talked to the manager, Ran (I think that's his name) AND i SAID . . UHHHH YOU AREN'T ORDERING ANYTHING? He told me that he cut orders because they've been marking out a lot of food as waste at the end of the day . . . I had to disagree with him on that. I said well I buy most of your vegetable plates and what not and he said, "Well if I know that you are going to buy them then I'll just order what you want and stick them aside for you" I was like. "Cool" . . . sooooo now I pretty much go in on a Monday and place my own order for the stuff that I want throughout the week . . . that's crazy, but at the same time it sort of makes me feel kind of special because I hear folks in line saying stuff about why I am picking up things that they can't order . . . eh what can I say I am of the PRIVILEGED CLASS . . . a regular frikkin Brooke Astor!


I wish . . .

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R.I.P. Brooke Astor (My lame attempt at an OBIT)

The Venerable Queen of Philanthropy, Brooke Astor passed away Monday. She was 105. This woman was amazing because philanthropy was pretty much her life, while being the ORIGINAL and BEST CELEBUTANTE was her career. She hob nobbed with the upper crust of the Manhattan Social Scene and Brooke was nothing short of a fashion MAVEN, always dressed impeccably and spent her life giving back to Manhattan and the surrounding Burroughs. This woman was incredible because she gave upwards of $200 million dollars for the enrichment of the City she loved so much. From the New York Public Library, to Central Park. From giving money to replace a boiler in a youth facility to helping fund The Apollo theater in Harlem. Brooke was awesome!
That is cool . . .The woman was cool. Why can't others be like her? What's not cool is that her son, whatever his name is literally ripped her off for something like $11 million bucks and pretty much made her life hell the last few years of her life . . . she's in a better place now, probably socializing and giving even in death . . .

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Little Dogs

It's sooo sad I have been running a lot lately on the beach and lately I've been seeing these people with these little tiny dogs you know like the teacup chihuahuas and the little tiny terriers and stuff and these people are running something fierce and dragging these little tiny dogs behind them that can't keep up . . . that makes me sad . .  sort of . . after I'm done laughing but yeah . .  .

 

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Horny!!!

so you post something in DOWNELINK of MYSPACE or DLIST and you write in the HEADING HORNY . .  .

 

are you really horny or just expressing a though . .  I'm jusr expressing I have not intention of fulfilling or hooking up with someone from there . . I don't think . . maybe  . . maybe not . . ugh confusing
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Itchy

I'm feelin itchy . .uggh and sticky it's humid

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Woot Woot . . Damn I look . . goo . .eh better a lot better!

Running 9 miles twice a day

 

crunches to failure (about 175 right now) twice a day

 

push-ups (standard) to failure (eh not so many) twice a day

 

push-ups (modified) to failure twice a day

 

two gallons of water

 

two 20 ounce cups of black coffee

 

1700 Calories a day

 

 

Yeah I'd say there are some changes occurring . .  and damn if I do say so myself . .  I am looking mighty fine . .meanwhile . . . ugh the smoking is getting on my nerves . . .

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Top 40 Failure

So it occurred to me, Top 40 Radio really does such . .  literally. I mean I though they had at least 40 songs to play. Turns out they have like ten songs that they just keep recycling.

 

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White Words

I was having a conversation with William last night. our conversation was much like the last several conversations we've had. He's going through relationship issues right now and he just needs a friend and that's cool with me, because that's what I'm there for. Something he keeps bringing up though strikes me as funny, humorous or just plain strange. He throws around the use of the phrase "white words" and implies that white folks like to use big words and what not, but then immediately he'll turn around and admit how he used to be high stylin' and high profile and what not, exuding his popularity in high school and what not . .  Will, whom I truly love with all my heart, has endured alot, from his boyfriend, and from me . .  I mean he and I have literally been "around the world" in a sense that has brought us full circle.

 

He's going out of his way to try and make changes within himself that I believe are unfounded. CHanges he "thinks" he needs to make in order to keep his relationship fresh and intact. I tried to tell him in a way that he'd understand that "falling out of love doesn't happen over a night or a weekend" falling out of love is something that takes place over a matter of time. Just like falling in love doesn't happen over night . .  it requires time and experience to determine whether or not a person is going to be in love for the long haul or in love for the moment. His boyfriend, Chris, has left him saying that he needs time and space and what not, you know the typical standard excuse to leave someone without caustoo much controversey. I don't believe Will is grasping the fact that Chris is gone and odds are he's not coming back. I don't want to straight out tell him that Chris isn't coming back because I think that would destroy our friendship, but the simple fact is is that you don't decide after two years that you've rushed into a relationship and want some time and space to breathe. I don't know. Will thinks that I ma throwing around my white words . . I honestly don't think it takes "White Words" to say Hey Will, you are better off without him. You have so much more to offer a person than whatChris is offering you. YOu don't need to wait ffor anyone. You have your choice of fellas you have your pick of the litter as it were. I wish you'd see that.

 

Anyhow, "White Words" aside, I love you man and you know I am there for you for the long haul just like you've been there for me.

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On The Brain

CJ's on the brain . . not for any other reason than I'm thinking about him. If he knew this he'd probably tell me the same thing I told him when he wrote he was thinking about me . . and the was not to think about me . .eh story of my life.

I am really worried about Will. He's truly unique in that he hates having to deal with relationships, but he so wants to be in the one he is in and that is it . . . my boy's got it bad . . and I guess that's cute, he and Chris seemed perfect for each other, but like I tried telling Will, life sometimes creates changes in people whether we want them too or not . .

I Love you Will, and for all that you and I have been through . . I am glad you are still a part of my life and that I can be here for you . .even though you know somethings in my own life aren't so hot right now.

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Chaffed Nipples

OUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

o.k. so uhhh my nipples are painfulkly chaffed right now . . . I guess running and sweating like a pig probably can do that. question though. . how the HELLLLLL do I stop the pain??????????? UGH!

 

Comment . . please please please

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A Disconnect Darkly

I am in a state of DISCONNECT. I know the reason for this disconnect and it has to do with not only my present situation in life, but also a situation that occurred a few years back one that I'd tried to forget about, but unfortunately I'm not really able to just FORGET about it. Anyhow, this disconnect has lead me in a direction and onto a path that I don't want to be on. I know that I am hurting those few people that care about me. I know that I have gone out of my way to burn quite a few bridges.

 

I don't mean too and I am so sorry. I wish there was a way for me to actually let you know what's going on, but unfortunately I can't . .  I can't tell everything about my life it would only serve to hurt you more. Trust me when I tell you that I am doing this for you more than for myself. I love you guys . .with all my heart but the last thing I want in my life is to know that you were hurt by something I did. Let me endure this alone it's better for everyone that way . . .

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Chris and Will

I feel bad. I talked to will last night for what seemed like hours, actually it was about three and a half hours. He's all broken hearted right now, and there isn't a whole lot that I can do for him. I wish there was something, but unfortunately that's the way love goes . . . it seems that he and Chris have split up, for awhile.

I don't know if I necessarily agree with the way that Chris did this or if I agree with his "terms" and conditions, but the fact is is that my Will is one Hot Mess right now and I guess it's my job to be there for him. Which I'd gladly do in a heartbeat.

Hmmm, you think that I'd be happy over this sudden change of events in Wills life, Wouldn't you? nawwwww . . . I know William well enough to know that he is hellbent on Chris . . and that he'll essentially stop at nothing to keep Chris in his life . . . .

I love my William . . . he's got a uniqueness about him that makes him my contemporary . . if not better than me and I can't say that for a lot of folks in my life . . .even those that view themselves as somewhat better than everyone else . . . to that I say learn some humility . . . meanwhile, yeah Will is a Hot mess so I guess I'm doing my job . . . anyhow yeah

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Midwest CRASHES into the west . . with great force I might add

Sooooo . . it turns out that Panera Bread has arrived in California . .  hmmmm I should have expected such a thing to occur . .now if I can just get Potbellies to pop up around town . . maybe an Aura . . . ooohhh or better yet maybe I can get an Apple Bees . .  .oh wait those are already here . . bwahahahaah

 

But Yeah Panera Bread, for those who don't know is a MidWest thing. the first time I saw one was in Minneapolis with Nathan . .  the first time I heard of Panera was from William in Chicago . . . so yeah I guess it's ok, but i'm not really a sandwich sort of person .  . but Will swears by them . . .

 

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A Wonderful World

So there I was this morning doing nothing . .  well I was actually Shopping at the Lakewood Mall . . . and there was this guy . . he was hot . . really hot, but not hot in the conventional sense, he is just one of those guys who happened to have that sexuality that some people possess that comes through naturally without trying . . . anyhow, this guy got me to thinking about something that you never ever see in the movies . . . cops, unless of course it's an action flick or a thriller or a cop sort of movie that is, but I mean in your standard romantic comedy, when you've got your female lead and your entirely too sexy male lead walking down the street or walking along the beach you never, OK rarely, see the cops just drive by like you do in real life . . .

 

what the sexy guy at the mall has to do with cops rolling down the street I know not, but still just a random observation about nothing I suppose. :o)

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